Last night while riding the bike (man is it ever nice to have that back, I was getting pudgy!) I was reading "The Attractor Factor" by Joe Vitale, and I had a bit of a breakthrough. I have been struggling a little lately with keeping my head clear. I have been having a hard time staying focused, not surprising really considering I'm just so crazy busy.

It started late last week when I started getting a little intimidated and scared when I started to think about everything that's going on. Don't get me wrong, I'm still excited but scared as well. Anyways, as I was reading I came across a paragraph that got me thinking. It said, "When we are born, we only have 2 fears. The fear of loud noises and the fear of falling."

Well that explains some of us out there and those dreams we have where we are always falling and we don't understand what they mean. It's a primal fear that has been instilled in us since birth. As for the fear of loud noises, well guys, that explains the fear of the in-laws coming over! Just kidding of course! :D

That brings me to the real question and my point here...

Why do we get scared when we are faced with life's little challenges? When we are so close to succeeding why do we become scared and back off? There is no logical reason to allow that fear to take hold of us.

Take a few minutes and visualize yourself as a brand new soul entering this world. Not as a baby but as yourself... a fully grown adult. Focus on what you have learned here... the only fears you are justified in having are the fears of loud noises and falling. Nothing else! If something has a hold of you, let it go! There is no reason to be afraid!

These were the thoughts that went through my mind last night and I found them incredibly helpful. "The Attractor Factor" has really helped me over the last week deal with some real issues in my past and helped me to focus my energy in positive and constructive way.

Another way it helped me was, I was still focusing some energy on the past in regards to a past relationship. I was still struggling with allowing myself to let it go. I wasn't doing this consciously but it was definitely still affecting me in a negative way. I didn't know how to release myself from this burden.

Joe Vitale put it well in "The Attractor Factor". He said, "Imagine your energy you put forth in a day as money. Let's say all your energy amounts to $500. If you are stuck dealing with something in your past, that will cost you $100, $200, $250 or more. IF you don't have your entire $500 to spend on your day, you are going to have to sacrifice some things throughout the day because you don't have enough money left".

This really put it into perspective for me. The craziest part, some may call it a coincidence but I know better than that now, was that the very next day, that ex girlfriend contacted me. We spent the next 2 or 3 hours emailing back and forth in one of the most emotionally engaged and inspiring conversations I have ever experienced. I found peace and closure on the subject and feel better than ever.

My fear I was experiencing was direct correlation of the energy I was losing on a daily basis by exerting it on a dead subject. All completely unconscious to what was going on.

We all struggle and we all find life difficult, but why? I have learned life is amazing! Life can be filled with joy, laughter and elation! I am tired of a shadowy, dark and miserable existence. Make that choice and find where your smile went to!

Ok enough sap for the day! I hope all that made sense... anyone have anything to add or want to share a story?